|Lauren Fleshman, details about her HERE (runner, US track champ, marathon PB of 2 hours 37 minutes!)|
"Is this another one of those before-after photos?", I asked myself.
And so I clicked on the link that brought me to a blog entry she wrote a few months ago that, according to her, went viral as it was about "revealing the truth about my glamorous runway shots".
That caught my interest...and I'm pretty sure it will catch yours, too. Here's what she wrote:
Let's Keep It Real About Our Bodies - by Lauren Fleshman
In reference to one of her good runway photos, she wrote:
It showed no evidence of all of my imperfections. That picture was what we all want to feel about ourselves, myself included.
And when she was telling about her workout photos which she uploads on her social media, she wrote:
As I was looking through my photos from practice I caught myself doing my usual thing: “Ugh, skip, delete, my butt looks big in that one, my stomach is pooching out there. Oh there’s a good one!”
(oh aren't we all guilty of this too....nasib la US track champ pun rasa macam tu jugak rupanya...)
Then I went on to read her earlier blog post, the one that went viral.
It was a great, interesting, real-life-story post, probably life-changing too....no wonder it went viral!
Click the title below to read it. MUST read it... :
Keeping It Real - by Lauren Fleshman
Dah habis baca?
Did you see how she REALLY looked like, off the runway, no doctored photos, no bronzing effects on the body, no sucking-in-the-tummy...? Her 'cheesy thighs', as she calls them?
I suck my tummy in all the time. Like, ALL the time. When I walk around (when I'm inside & definitely outside the house), when I cook, when I shower (alone!), when I solat, when I sit and type this blog entry.....
As Lauren Fleshman wrote:
What the hell is wrong with us? We have this one body we are born with, live inside of, and move through the world in.
So she has challenged us to post an unflattering picture of ourself. Okayyy macam susah sikit sebab semua unflattering pictures of myself (agak banyak sebenarnya) telahpun saya delete se-delete delete nya.
Because I've had four babies pop out of me. I breastfed all of them...the longest was Kaka, I fully breastfed her until she was 2 years 6 months old. I run frequently & do strength training regularly *ehem ye ke* but I don't have toned dancer-legs. I'll be 42 years old in 2 months' time so whether I like it or not, age does have an impact on the body.
Jadi mestilah rasa tak best bila tengok gambar diri sendiri yang tak best. :P
But there was this one photo taken last year that was..urmm...well if it was my call, it would not be a photo for public viewing. Hehe. But as it was taken by a very nice photographer & I had a rather nice smile in that pic, I did not hide it from my Facebook timeline (it was a tagged picture).
The photos of me *in running attire & which are 'approved' for public viewing* usually look like these:
|Just because I suck in my tummy all the time...|
|Just because I look shapely in this photo whilst in real life I have a banana type figure / boyish figure with not so much rampingness.|
|Just because the pants that I wore in this photo made my legs look lean & long...|
After reading Lauren's blog entry...I actually felt ouch insecure-nya saya. And because I loved her sincerity SO much (I am now part of the gazillions who calls her brave, a hero, etc etc) that I sent that blog link to my husband via whatsapp.
Less than 30 minutes later, The Hubby replied my message saying:
"Yup. It was a good article full of the truth. Check out the latest comment in the blog."
(the latest comment at that time)
So I pun scroll down kat blog tu cepat2 nak tengok siapakah omputeh punya komen yang Hubby beriya suruh baca tu.
That comment made my eyes well up with tears.
It was my husband. He who rarely mentions me especially in the social media, he whom I thought did not notice what I've been doing in the hopes of becoming a better wife & mother, a better runner.
I do always wonder if I'm fat (dah lah frame besar kan). Dan selalu jugak rasa semua cermin mengejek. Cellulite? Of course lah ada kan.
He got a big hug from me, of course. The best wedding anniversary gift ever (walaupun anniversary tu 2 hari lepas), walaupun bukan actual physical gift pun.
Though I will probably not let myself go & pig out on pizza or pies which I love or nasi kukus ayam goreng berempah hari-hari after this...I would probably try to be less uptight about my body. And how I look in photos.
The body that I was born in, bak kata Cik Lauren.